A Sad Day

As I sit here to share with you today, I come with sadness in my heart. Today is one of the toughest day for me since we have moved here to Colorado. We have been having some trouble with our dog, Rusty. He is a great dog, although he doesn't like other dogs. Then with moving here we have a lot lightening & thunder storms (almost every night). We all are not use to that but Rusty especially didn't' deal well with it. So, he started to try to get out of the backyard. One time he went through the fence. Then he was able to climb over the gate. So, our next step was to put a shock collar on so he wouldn't go over. Well, today we find out that none of that matter if he wants out, he is gone. And today there was no storm happening. As hard as it was, we had to make a choice for our dog and our family. Rusty has been a part of our family for about 3 1/2 years. He has been in our Christmas pictures. We took him camping and water skiing with us. He slept on his own bed next to my side of the bed. Yeah, I had spoiled this dog. This also caused a bit of arguing between my husband & I. We have talked a lot about finding him a new home. Well, today we took him to a place to be adopted. I love this dog very much and it was like losing a family member. I cried like a big baby. I know that it was best for our family. Although it may be the best thing for us, it was very hard. It is going to take some getting use to not having him around all of the time. It is a sad day. The kids are dealing pretty well with it. They both cried a bit. I know with time we will be okay. I will always love Rusty and I am praying that he finds a great home. A place where he can run and someone to love him. So, this was my day in a nut shell.

I just got done putting my kids to bed and I sit here just crying. I think it is going to be harder than I thought. I miss my dog. I miss him laying next to us where ever we were. I miss him following me around the house. He was funny because he had to be with us in the house. We should have called him Shadow because he was our shadow. I almost feel that I can really just let myself cry now that my kids are with me. They saw me cry, but not like I am as I type this. I felt I needed to hold it back a bit for them. They are dealing with it better than I am. My kids had popcorn for a snack and I saw some on the floor and thought oh, Rusty will eat it. He loved eating our food droppings. I realize there is no Rusty to eat those now. I am just feeling so sad.

It is just makes me realize that there is always a battle going on. As hard as things may be from time to time we have a choice to make. Do we dwell on what bad things or sad things are happening or do we deal with it and move forward. This maybe something that takes a little time to move forward on, but I know that is what I am suppose to do. I can focus on the negative of it all, but I need to look at what God has for us now. I need to learn from it all. God has a lesson for us in every situation. The question is are we will willing to look at what we can learn. What can we be thankful for? God is bigger than it all. I am so grateful for that.

I hope this all makes sense, I feel as though I have just babbled here today. To be honest it has helped me to feel a bit better. Thanks for all of you who listened.