My friend

I come today with a sadness. I have a friend that has been fighting cancer for about 10 years. She is a wonderful person, so full of life. She blew me away how positive and optimistic she was. She always looked at the good of things. Every time I would see her and even just a picture she was always smiling. I am not exaggerating, she truly was always smiling, always happy. So full of joy for life. We could go months without talking, and we could call each other and it was like we talked all the time. We always had stuff to talk about. She was so fun to be around. What an inspiration she was. I just found out today, but looking her up on my space that she lost her fight on July 1, 2007. I can't even believe it. I am so mad at myself for not being better about calling, for not being a better friend. I have thought of her so often and thought oh I should call her and then though I will do it later. That was a big mistake. I can't believe I didn't even get to say bye. I sit here and I just can't fully grasp it that I lost my friend. She was only 35. That is just not right. I am glad she isn't in any more pain or suffering anymore, but I am so sad she is gone. I want to call and hear her happy and joyful voice again. Let me just tell anyone who is reading this, if you have the urge to call someone you care about, don't wait call them, don't put it off. You just never know what will happen. I am taking this hurtful experience and learning something from it. I want to tell all my family and friends that I love you all very much and each of you has a special place in my heart. Each one of you have provided me with such a wonderful life. I am so thankful God has brought every single one of you into my life. I take from Tina's life and her example to live life to it's fullest. Don't let things keep you down. You have a choice to be full of joy or to wallow in pity. I know that I will be making a cautious effort to be full of joy and truly embrace and love life. We don't know how many days God has given us, so live the life you have been given with joy. Even though I sit here sad I am joyful that she no longer has to suffer. I know that one day I will see her again. I look forward to that day to see her smiling face again. Just sitting here thinking of her smile makes me smile. She had such a big heart. I close this hoping that you will really consider what I have said. I hope it all makes sense. Love & miss you, Kim